my wilson

i'm sitting here alone (besides 2 dogs, 3 cats, 1 bird) in the house i am sitting for the weekend. studying and watching Wilson be a thankless, unwavering friend to House. it's true, when i sit alone for any extended period, i get sappy. so, i'm sappy.

i am so thankful for the wilson in my life. some days, you contribute to my problems, and some days you are their solution. always, you are there, and your presence makes me better.

thank you for caring enough to be tough when i am impossible. thank you for loving me through the worst and darkest time of my life. i am burdened daily by how much you loved and how little i deserved. thank you for saving my life. i owe you everything.

May the LORD now show you kindness and faithfulness, and I too will show you the same favor because you have done this. - 2 Samuel 2.6
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Ecclesiastesical

I love being in my room. I am amazed these days that I will leave company, conversation, food, TV, etc., and retreat to the aloneness of my room. This habit would have been unbelievable only a few months ago. I guess I'm in an Ecclesiastesical (like, in Ecclesiastes... no, i did not just misspell Ecclesiastical...) season. I am enjoying this time of independent focus. I am learning to need other people but not to be defined by my relationships with them. Life is a lot less threatening when I am defined by what I know I can depend on. Life is a lot less threatening in my room.

oh, what a night!

this has been a really nice evening. home alone. completely alone. i've gotten a lot of school work done and a lot of home chores done. and, i have really enjoyed the absolute silence. being alone is more wonderful than it has been in many years.
peace.
-mo

Holes

I also learned...

...dogs cannot fill person-sized holes in people's lives. A man whose dog is his best friend is a lonely man. Dogs make bad husband-substitues, and they make lousy children. Dogs are good for being dogs.

Dogs cannot replace people; people cannot replace dogs.
-mo

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Home

Home is my favorite place on earth.

I learned this weekend that home is one of the loneliest places on earth. The people there love me; they care about what's going on in my life; they pay attention to what I have to say. But, they are all coupled. Everywhere I go, I am the odd one. When everybody's home, there's Mama&Daddy, April&Tim, Joy&Andrew (who is not part of the family but is too often around anyway), Granny&Popa, Uncle Earl&Aunt Patricia, Uncle Richard&Aunt Donna, etc. Then, there's Wissa. Just Wissa. Lonely Wissa.

Yet, home is my favorite place on earth.
-mo
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my wish

i really, really, really just wish i had a real friend, somebody to believe me and to believe in me, somebody to make loneliness not so lonely.

then again, i don't really know if that's what i want or not... i've never known what it's like to be part of a two-way friendship, one in which i am not the only one who cares. if i'd ever experienced friendship, maybe i'd have a better idea of what i want now.
-mo
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"The Hardest Thing I've Ever Done...

...is keep belivin' there's someone in this crazy world for me."
-Karen Carpenter, dittoed by mo
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